just so you know i am RUNNING IN PLACE WITH EXCITEMENT AND NERVOUSNESS
it’s very invigorating
Cas, please try again
Please tell me it’s still Tuesday in Hawaii because this picture took longer to draw than I had expected it to >n>
purple-impala asked: SO I just came across this lovely blog today and I just want you to know that your style of art is absolutely adorable and incredible. I was extremely shocked to see you draw everything with a mouse! You have skill, girl! I guess I’d like to request Sam and Cas doing something cute together? Or the whole of Team Free Will doing something cute together? anyway, don’t mind me i’m gonna go reblog half of your art :>
Anonymous asked: are requests really open??? could you draw cas eating a burger….
But Sammy, we are hobos.
I notice a lot of people are upset at the writers for tonight’s episode, and believe me, I understand. But take a breath for a moment, step outside the emotional trauma (after some good screaming, of course) and let’s try to think.
I will be the first to admit that my twitter was filled with text-versions of my screams and pleas of agony. But, I absolutely adored this episode and that Castiel’s return was written brilliantly. The tension and the anxiety that paralleled between both Dean and Sam’s situations were fantastically kept throughout the episode until the climax, and the twist at the end was great, in my opinion. I cannot stop praising the writers for giving us a display of all the pain and regret that Castiel felt not only for hurting his brothers or being the cause of so much death, but for betraying his best friend. His immediate desire to die after knowing that he had so completely destroyed the Winchesters was something that had my heart wrenching and jumping for joy because it was exactly that sort of pain and realization that I knew Cas had to feel. And that’s simply amazing- because the confession, the desire to run, that need to die, meant so much. This is an angel. He could have, like so many others, brushed it off and dismissed the pains of humanity. He could have done his own thing, focus on his own issues, be more concerned about what benefits him in a spiritual war, his life at stake, instead of react with such extreme distress- there were no tears, there was no sobbing. But for Castiel, what he did and felt and said meant so much more.
Now, I’m extremely upset that Castiel is in the situation he’s in and Dean’s blatant disregard for him made me want to reach into the scream and smack him myself. I understand Castiel messed up, and Dean himself mentions that, despite himself, Cas’ betrayal caused a pain in him he simply could not shake off. The fact that his descent to wickedness is something that Dean, untouchable, unbreakable Dean, could not shake off speaks insane volumes. It means that there was something they shared that was so important, so precious, so sacred and so very much needed that Dean still cannot bear to know that he lost it. But now we see that, even after what Cas has done, Dean is still bitter and that is mind blowing. I am inwardly begging that the writers do this right, that Dean is smacked in the face with his own cruelty and selfishness at this point. When the episode ended, I was amazed that Sam didn’t give him the earful he needed- but I am praying that the writers see that there is some much-needed chastising to come for Dean.
Yes, Castiel failed him. Yes, he lied. Yes, he abused their trust. But now he’s in the worst situation he can manage as a practically fallen angel. Here is a being who loved and depended on God, now face to face with the worst being in possible existence knocking around in his head. This friendship has cost him his life, his hope, his faith, his ignorance and now the price has gotten heavier. Now, the terror and pain that Sam was dying from is on his shoulders- I understand they can’t carry a schizo, terrified Cas in the trunk of the Impala and fight their way through Leviathans simulaneously. We can’t be unrealistic. But, you can’t convince me leaving him there was the right thing to do. You can’t tell me Castiel doesn’t deserve endless gratitude because of his compassion, his sympathy, his humanity. You can’t tell me that saying he had no friends and that any that he did have were dead was not a douche-bag move on Dean’s part. If Dean thinks he can just shrug Castiel off and have the right to deny that he has shown time and time again that he is a true friend, I am going to have to wring some necks.
But that’s good writing, guys. That this is supposed to hurt us, I think, if the writers are as clever as I believe them to be. We’re supposed to feel angered and burdened by Dean’s resentment. The funny thing is, that if we’re upset about the resentment that Dean feels, then we only have a fraction of how angered he, himself, feels over his behavior. If it pisses us off, imagine him. So let it bother you, let is piss you off. Let is drive you off the deep end- because if you feel tempted to hate him for it, then imagine how he must hate himself.
‘Emanuel’ asked Dean if he was the one that killed Cas, and we see his eyes shift. We see Dean can’t answer. We know that he can lie about a lot of things, but something about that question he cannot bear to lie about. He does not answer. He does not know. He can’t say no, he can’t bear to say yes. There are more changes to come for Castiel, and development to fill endless novels (and fanfiction pages) for Dean. Sam knows what he went through- if there’s one thing I want to see, it’s the baby brother teaching the elder how to man up.
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE DEAD, DEAN? THE BEST FRIEND YOU COULD EVER FREAKIN’ HAVE IS ALIVE AND INSANE AT AN ASYLUM.
I really, really want to see Castiel’s return next week. Though, from the hints, I get the feeling it won’t be as satisfying as we’d all hope; It’d be a dream-come-true if we could have him back as a main figure in the rest of the series, but I don’t know, I ahve the gut-feeling it won’t happen. Let’s hope my gut is wrong!
Regardless, like the Teaat2am said, Dean and Cas have a really transcendental bond. I think, like the actors said too, Dean’s gone through a lot and losing Castiel was one of his biggest personal pains alongside of Bobby and Sam- to see him, and as we’ll find out that it may not even be him, should definitely cause an impact.