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Can you hear his heart break? Because that’s what the last gif is about. This is everything Dean is affraid of, that his feelings are one-sided. That Cas doesn’t actually care for him. Dean doesn’t fight here. He can’t. The sole thing he can do is hope she is wrong. But you can see that her words got him right in his weak spot.
This part made me want to SCREAM. Because I literally don’t know how she could have made a stronger jab at their relationship and been nastier and more two-faced. Dean is only just, barely, starting to get over his trust issues, self-loathing, and only just, barely, starting to believe that maybe Cas loves him too. Purgatory helped a lot with that, because it was the biggest, most literal manifestation of Cas’s feelings for Dean, and we all saw Dean’s face then. It helped him to believe in Cas, to fight for him, to get through the crypt scene, and if Dean took a guess at how Cas broke free, which he probably did, “me/something I said” was a damn obvious answer, and dang it, the guy cupped his freaking face. Stroked his cheek with his thumb. And I kind of think a part of Dean still can’t believe that actually happened, because man, that’s…that’s huge. And maybe deep inside, he knows, he knows Cas cares for him a lot, but it’s still his weakest spot. HE DIDN’T SEE CAS FIGHTING FOR HIM TOO. Because that was inside Cas’s head. He doesn’t know how many Dean dummies he had to kill, and he still refused to hurt Dean. Castiel’s love for Dean is immeasurable, but Dean only got to see the tip of that iceberg due to circumstances. A teeny, tiny tip of a gigantic iceberg that’s by now completely etched into Cas’s being. But Dean. Dean has barely gotten to see it.
This season has done literally everything to show us that these two love the shit out of each other. Which they are becoming aware of, but they still underestimate the magnitude of it, because those words are still enough for Dean to make this face. Call the ambulance.
Think of this season’s relationship with faith.
I believe in you, Dean.
Putting a lot of trust in you, brother.
I told you I would get you out. Did you not trust me?
Purgatory taught us that not all is what it seems, and we can find family in the most unlikely of places. Dean has been tested countless times—when Cas left to protect him, when Cas was returned to him, when Cas was forced to hurt him—and yet each time, he’s come away with the same thought. We’re family. I need you.
He’s still hoping Cas will return to him, even after everything, because he needs Cas. He loves Cas.
Long ago, Castiel lost a father. Long ago, he put his faith in Dean. And maybe, just maybe, Dean can return the favor.
He might not trust angels, but he trusts his.
